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Guess who's back, back again1/5/2020 The year is 2020,
we are saving turtles an orange man runs the usa milk is cancelled cursive writing is irrelevant we stan the environment I, Jorden have started a blog once again. Welcome to the new year and not so new me. My 2019 was a year filled with more than I could have ever imagined. I experienced, good, bad, amazing, literal hell and everything in between. This past year has harbored an abundance of growth I didn't think I was ready for. Yet here I am in 2020 on my feet and working through whatever life throws at me. I started off 2019 with a trip all the way across the world to Johannesburg, SA. Nothing could have prepared me for the rush of emotions the trip brought. I could go on and on about all this trip taught me but to keep it short I learned to be thankful for what I have and that continuous education of the world outside of your own is good for soul. Following that I competed in a barista competition, I made it to our regional finals in which I got to speak on ethical coffee practices. The competition inspired me to dive into Starbucks and learn how an ethical company takes care of not only their partners but also coffee farmers around the world. I presented a coffee called Rwanda, Abakundakwa which is a coffee made by an all women's farm in Rwanda. It was was built following a genocide that wiped out huge communities and families. Following my research I walk into work everyday taking pride in the company I work for and all it does to distribute their wealth in meaningful and impactful ways. I spent the summer reconnecting with my little sister. We didnt grow up very close and while sharing a room with her for 6 weeks made us both go crazy I can say with confidence that we came out of it with a renewed love for one another. Following that I picked up my best friend Anissa and we hit the road. Driving from Airdrie down the Pacific Coast and back to Vegas. We had no plan and probably almost died but it was a blast from start to finish. This girl is literally my soul mate, she's reminded me what its like to be with family. The following months were a blur of not having my shit together. I made some crappy mistakes. I made the healthy yet difficult decision to remove people from my life. I moved out of the condo I had been in for 2 years. It was a lot of changes all at once and I just let it drain me. My days were filled with a lot of long naps and a massive loss of motivation. It happens. Luckily, I had friends (and a new found therapist) that helped me get back up. This year I learned to accept and even ask for help. I let people in and I cried to them about how shitty everything was and not only did they listen but they helped me carry the weight of my world despite having their own to worry about. I am thankful everyday for the people in my life and the happiness they bring me. Loneliness was something I did not know in 2019. I'm entering 2020 being vulnerable. Something I have refused to be, resented the mention of and retaliated against when referenced as. Being vulnerable is the most powerful thing I learned in 2019 because it forced me to open up and not only be honest with myself but also the people I care about. By being vulnerable I practice authenticity. I give my actions meaning and I am genuine in the things I speak about. The year is 2020 we care about mental health friends can be family stress is cancelled vulnerability is relevant we stan therapy
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